Corel Painter 11/Photoshop CS5.
We like to portray ourselves in such strong ways, hiding behind what we truly feel inside. Things that we just want to run away from. Some memories that we want to forget. At least, that's kind of the way I see it.
This is a painting dedicated to my boyfriend, who I am going to call Hombre. I have learned a lot from him that has honestly made me stronger and braver in life than I ever have, or imagined to have ever been.
Below I wrote up a little bit of my personal life. So enjoy.
I've known of Hombre since 2008 when he did (and still does) a lot of activities for Zeldauniverse.net around the world. Basically you could say that he was a guy completely out of my league with how well he is known in the Zelda community. Back then we barely spoke and if we did speak to each other, it was just some basic talk about a Zelda game. No biggie. I didn't like him in that sort of way. Nor did it ever cross my mind.
Fastforward to 2012 after a disastrous break-up with an ex, I was ruined. For months on end I couldn't trust anyone. I ran and hid from great opportunities. I was constantly surrounded by lies, drama, pain and terrible memories which refused to go away that plagued my mind. I was living in a pile of shit.
And of course with me being an artist, I lost my motivation, inspiration and drive to create art. All I saw was white.
I remember a Skype chat from some point from Hombre after he heard what happened months after the break-up. I was surprised that he took the time to talk to me. But at that point, I only saw it as a "I hope you get well, friend," which I appreciated, but it really didn't seem like much to me at the time.
He was always there, despite the fact that I didn't really want to talk to him, or anyone for that matter. I was scared to basically fuck up my life again.
But he believed in me, and he knew that I had it in me to break through to the end. He was persistent, but he was respectful.
I started talk to Hombre a bit more, even though I was extremely shy and timid around him, but it was mainly for matters such as doing some Zelda fan artwork and whatnot to help with some of his Zelda videos. Any personal talk from me was off-limits.
New Year's Day just passed for 2013 and apparently he got a bit interested in me, so he asked if him and I could have a Skype call, with a video. I took it because hey, I had nothing better to do.
Next day he asked to call again. I accepted it. And then the next day. And the day after that. For a couple days I enjoyed it, but I also found it irritating because it took up my time to do some of the things I wanted to do, but slowly and steadily, I really started to enjoy his company in my boring room. A week or so went by and I started to look forward to our evening calls when I woke up first thing in the morning.
Then well… the mushy stuff hit me. I was surprised with it too. I started to fall in love with him. Then came early February and then it happened. He asked for me to be his girlfriend.
Going back to what I said in the first paragraph, Hombre is strong
compared to someone such as myself. Despite me being the shy one, despite me being the weaker out of the two, despite my history and despite me dealing with some of the bullshit I went through, he continued to put up with it, and he dealt with it with such force that it taught me to believe that not everyone is bad, and that there's always hope if you believe in it.
He gave me the motivation to believe again, to believe in trust and honesty, to believe that not everyone will give up on you, and he gave me the willpower to enjoy life again - no matter what happens, and no matter what you went through. He is such a blessing in my life that even to this day, I still feel so lucky to know that he is with me, and that he loves me for who I am.
Hombre means so much to me that it felt incomplete to just upload this artwork and write "dis iz mai boyfriend hurr."
Thank you for inspiring me Hombre, and for being the world to me.
I love you, and, Happy Birthday.
Art info: The fire represents that strength, and he is Swedish, so… I decided to add Sweden's flag on the back of his golden cape.
Hombre de Fuego means "Man of Fire" in Spanish.
Older artwork that I did of him:
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